Pick of the Day:

Spotlight Artist: Angel Taylor

Not Even Human



Spinning Wheels (Live)



And suddenly...you see me fall...

Wait Til You See My Smile.

So I'm going to TRY to make this my last blog about him. Cause I feel as if the longer that I am stuck in the past, the less happy I'm going to be in the future. Yet, presently I have a lot of unanswered questions. I was watching MTV's True Life. A couple met in college, and after college the guy went to Indianapolis and the girl went to Virgina. They had a 4 year long, long distance relationship and the 4th year, they got married. THE END. Last year around this time I felt like love could travel...and it had no constraints, but he constrained it. He gave up because it became too hard. Yet the most difficult challenges often always turn into an amazingly beautiful ending. This year, I still feel that MY love has traveled halfway...if only he would meet me right there. Rather sooner than later. Idk how many people have fell in love, saw the meaning of happiness shine through a person, and then have all that taken away in a matter of seconds and miles. Im laughing right now...because ii know God works miracles...&& ii know if God miraculously brought me and him together again..::sigh::. just wait til you see my smile.

Chris Brown-Froze

My Pick of the Day:

My Words of the Day

"My heart still has some thawing to do. Still frozen. Just how you left it..."

. S I L Y A .

Dear Silya,

Don't give up. This too...can be yours.

Mars Vs. Venus

So there's this guy. He's not THE guy. But here he is. Not knowing that just a moment ago, I had given up on love. Deep down inside of me, I feel like I've already found the one for me. I left my heart with him a year ago. But since I don't have his in return, I suppose its okaay for me to move on. Yet, I've tried. && I kept running in to the Mr. Feels So Right But In The End Your Are Still So Wrong- type of guys. But lets not dread on the past today. Sooooooo this new guy. He seems real cool. His sarcasm matches mine. I dig his style. He calls me 'ma' (blush). Ahh I'm such a geek && he's my n.e.r.d. Who cares who approves cause so far he has done nothing but make me smile. The thing is, I find that I cant quite be myself with him. And its not because I can't. Its because I just dont want to be. The thing I always tell my friends is...never to be guarded because you might miss out on someone special. Don't get me wrong, I am a very open person, but my little heart cannot take anymore heartache. I don't know if Im only making excuses because he's not h i m. No one ever will be. && it hurts me because its only holding me back. It's like i'm choosing between M a r s vs. V e n u s. him and he. When in the end, there is no comparison. Exhale.Let's see how far HE goes.

j u s t h o l d on & & d o n ' t l e t g o.

Drake - Over (2010 Juno Awards Live Performance)

Best Rapper Alive.





My Drake went home with Best New Artist && Best Rap Recording of the Year Awards. :) #thankHIMlater

&& of course...before he was Drake. He was Aubrey Graham. Either way ii LOOOOOOOVE em'.

just me && my musiq.

" Music allows you to escape...even when you know its impossible to."

S I L Y A

Before I met you...I was nothing that I am. Now everything I am, is nothing that I wanted to be.

T H E B R O K E N - H E A R T E D G I R L.

Maxwell - Playing Possum (High Quality)

Express disappointment...speak your regrets. Baby call out my name. I'll be where y o u are. I'll be very STILL. Step down to my heart.

Alicia Keys – Unthinkable Video (I’m Ready)

Alicia Keys – Unthinkable Video (I’m Ready)


Beautiful Video to an oh so beautiful song.

Here I Stand

I used to say that I would rather be alone if ii had to be without you. Now that i'm without you... I don't say much at all. Every second without you is like a minute without air. It feels like a thousand blows to the body that then goes numb, leaving me to only feel it in my heart. I still remember the day you had to leave. it was the last day I have ever felt complete happiness. You told me you would be back if you could. Guess you couldn't.You told me no amount of miles could break us apart. Yet, we're broken.I've tried to break. Break away from the feeling of your fingertips perfectly placed into mines. Away from how you saw the beauty of a diamond when all ii saw was coal. From your smile, your laugh, && most of all your...heart. The feeling sits with me that now someone else gets to love all of what ii am missing. You. I've moved on, but I can't let go. I know this because I try. I'm trying. I've tried...

Quote of the Day

"Love is letting go...from ALL angles."

-Silya

Guarded

You don't have to tell me you love me, for ii already know. I know that your [heart] is incapable of allowing the capabilities for [love] to love the way its suppose to love....But the question I can't quite comprehend yet is... why are you so guarded?

I don't need a long-winded description of the people that has hurt you, what makes you scared to feel feelings, or that you just aren't strong enough to endure being hurt again. Once upon a time, our stories of how we've been victimized by love were all different, but being guarded will soon lead us all to the same non-happily-ever-after.

I know for a fact that it takes a strong person to love and love again each time with a clean slate. A stronger person to love in the present and re-up out the past. It takes courage to stare love in the eyes when it is staring you right back in the face...asking you to give what is being given back to you (your all)...promising to be unconditional at all times. It takes growth to not relapse and remember all other broken promises. It takes someone deserving of love to believe with their mind, body, and soul that this time truly may be different. I mean what is the worst that can happen when you open up and give your heart away? They give it to you back??? Okayy well so be it. But at the end of the day you have to be more open to the next chance you get because it might just be your time to find love as love finds you
MOOD: Hopeful [anti-guarded]