Complicated.

Your touch still lingers on my skin.

Looking into your eyes..

I fall again...

As your fingers slowly trace my face

Finding something more beautiful

about it each day.

And then you kiss my lips,

and everything else..

I slowly forget.

Forgetting all that isn't you

knowing in my heart

no other man would do..

All the things you do

to make me smile...

are all in you,

it's all worthwhile.

The way I talk,

and the way you listen

as if it's the first time you've heard it before.

And I keep talking

and you keep listening

and you listen...and listen once more

And then I find time

to push you away

and you find time

to be back the next day...

I tell you I hate you

as you kiss my cheek

because deep down you know

exactly, what I really mean.

And now my heart

is so wrapped up in fear

but somehow..

you know just how to get near...

close enough to

touch my heart...

and give me faith

in our new start.

Then my mind takes me back

to all the ones before

and how...

it felt so right

but how

it ended so wrong.

And how...

they took my heart in pieces

and how...

the hurt just never ceases.

and now...

how things just feel the same

and how..

I can't keep up with this game.

Cause if I finally let you in,

You would have to accept

the person I've been.

and me accept

that you're not him.

But you could hurt me

just like he did.

did

did you expect this to be easy...

cause I know it's a lot to take in..

But before I jump TOO far...

Tell me your name again??

Yesterday

Over.

Before I fell in love, I fell in love. Unnoticed. I gave you everything, without giving you anything at all. Unwillingly, I allowed you to caress my heart. You graced my life with your evanescent presence, and just like that...you faded away. You gave me everything I never wanted, and nothing I never needed. and that was love. Bitter, yes I was. Lonely...confused, were things I felt. But I'm standing here..still standing. Not waiting, or wandering, but wondering how time could have brought me so much pain, yet so much promise. Cause what you promised, was that "everything will be alright". And I'm alright, with or without you by my side. You see the love I have for you is no longer a burst of flame, but rather a small spark in this wind. Your heart seems way more distant, moving further each day. Your voice is unrecognizable, but I like it that way...with no sound. No control. No power over what has always been mines. Our clock is broken, but I'm STILL frozen in time. and I lost you, or did I really even lose you? For I know just where to find you if I ever feel that I should. But even if I needed you, I don't think that I could because what I'm feeling today is reality in its place. This dream we had for us was nice while it lasted. You painted it though it seems like you've already moved passed it. So this is my goodbye, for you from me. No longer holding on to what was or what should be. You are doing you, and someone else will be doing me. Don't feel bad. I will always remember the day that I fell... but YOU should remember this day...so long, farewell.

Silya Says:

"God gave us love...why is it so hard for you to give yours away?"