Thursday, January 14, 2010

Broken Heartz

It's funny how something once so perfect
Can now be something you barely even recognize.
It's strange how first impressions
aren't lasting ones...
&& how your last words
don't match with your first ones.
It's drastic how I've seemed to love you
more than I loved myself
&& it hurts to know how much I care
versus your non-care-at-all.
It's annoying how many times I've said
that I'm over you...
When all I really wanna be
is beside you.
I'm scared to know what
you are thinking
Yet not knowing is
an indescribeable feeling.
Is it hopeless to say
that I want us to work
Cause you don't seem so willing...
I'm trying to remember
what lead to this part
Leaving me again to
re-repatch my heart.
What happened to our smiles
that never seemed to fade away
Or the drawn out conversations
at the end of everyday..
What about the moments
you didn't wanna spend without me
or the way you made your time...
somehow revolve around me.
I used to be your number one fan
You used to be my joy but then...
So typically, you had to change
and the tears I shed
Are yours to claim.
&& I wish you would say something
Cause your silence is deafening
More than the words
"I'm sorry, it's over"
Cause at least that way
I could start on my closure
Lay in the bed
Cry instead of sleep...
Tossing && turning
Listening to Floetry on repeat.
Wondering how I'm ever gonna
face you.
Wishing that somehow I could kinda
erase you.
break you.
hate you.
love you.
save you.
Save us
before our chapter ends
Rewrite us to how
it should have been.
But you close your eyes
as I exhaled slow...
&& still I wonder
Where do [broken heartz] go?

2 comments:

  1. i tried to comment on this earlier but i couldn't. but anyways i LOVE it! it left me speechless and literally in tears! as you see i HAD to post it on my blog! ;)

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  2. yes ii saw Shi! But thaanks alot. I try to be happy Silya but as you will see on my blog, its TOTALLY different.

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