What's Left Of Me

I've always loved this song...

Lovebirds.

Better Than Me

How do you love a body with no soul. A face with no name. A heart with no beat. This mind with no map...love it all, just like you did. How you did it so discretely, with no warning or cause. Slithering your way into a place that was guarded so well. You timed the way you were going to do it and you did it...just as you planned. But this is something we never planned. How simple it was for you to seep through all these spaces I left open. The way you re-drew the lines that had already been crossed. All the while, these lines turned into circles that seem to always follow me. The same me that you need. The me that I would offer if it were still there. But fading memories and broken promises is all that's left. And I'd give it all, if thats what you wanted. But what you wanted...the same things that you want...the same things that I'm dying to fulfill, and I feel it. See, I've never been in happiness, but I've been in love. I can show you how one can be without the other. But that's not what you wanna see. You can't see it from me. But it's shown...even through your blindest eyes. He took what I gave him, and he gave it away. She got what I worked for, and all that I ever wanted. Yet, you're asking me to find it, somewhere...somehow and give it to you. But I'm finding these things deep down that I already knew. Love doesn't last. I'm ready to let you leave...cause for this one time only, save yourself from me. All I want is something to hold onto. Something that's a little more guaranteed. The way you love me yields no direction. I ought to give you what you deserve...but the me that you seek is still incomplete, forgive me. I'm sorry.

No BOYS Allowed!!!!!

KERI HILSON – NO BOYS ALLOWED TRACKLIST

1. BUYOU (FEAT. J. COLE)
2. PRETTY GIRL ROCK
3. THE WAY YOU LOVE ME (FEAT. RICK ROSS)
4. BAHM BAHM (DO IT ONCE AGAIN I WANT YOU)
5. ONE NIGHT STAND (FEAT. CHRIS BROWN)
6. LOSE CONTROL (LET ME DOWN) (FEAT. NELLY)
7. TOY SOLDIER
8. BREAKING POINT
9.BEAUTIFUL MISTAKE
10. GIMME WHAT I WANT
11. ALL THE BOYS
12. PRETTY GIRL ROCK (REMIX) (FEAT. KANYE WEST)

--I've gave No Boys Allowed a second listen and it has potential to grow on me. I like it for the most part, but I feel like the title isn't consistent with the album as a whole. I guess I expected the album to tell a story, much like In A Perfect World. However, Keri is still a fresh artist and in her process of finding herself I say job well done.

(She gets 3 Sil's from me)

Medicine

I AM REALLY DIGGIN QUE'S NEW MIXTAPE. I THINK ALL THE LOVERS OUT THERE WOULD ENJOY IT AS WELL. BUT FOR NOW JUST TAKE A LISTEN TO ONE OF THE TRACKS FROM THE MIXTAPE CALLED "MEDICINE"

I Like You Because....

I like you because of you. The you that you once were. The you that you'll always be. The you that I still don't know, but the you that keeps me falling. No rush to be on solid ground because the you in me keeps me balanced. I feel all types of crazy by confessing this so soon, but the me in you should let you know that I don't have anything to lose..YET, I like you because you know me...even when I don't know myself. You see me perfectly for what I am. No need to change it. But you're changing...and I let you. Maybe I should meet you half way. But I'm scared, and you're scared. But I won't be scared to say it. So I'll say it, but that wont save it...from getting in our way. Right now...today, I want to promise you some things. I'm going to like you because of all that you mean...my laugh, my smile..it's all coming from you. And as strong as your guards are, I'm going to get through...so let's save time. Just let me in. Let me be your heart, be your rock, be your friend, be your reasons to let go, and love once more...because i'm feeing you now like never before. But I know I've hurt you and you've hurt me, and I know that feelings can sometimes mislead. But what matters is that we are here right now. Because now... the only thing that we are losing is time, just say yes already..c'mon and be mine. Yes, I like you. I really reaaallly like you because...the same things I like are the same things I love. So...I'll like you. :)

Complicated.

Your touch still lingers on my skin.

Looking into your eyes..

I fall again...

As your fingers slowly trace my face

Finding something more beautiful

about it each day.

And then you kiss my lips,

and everything else..

I slowly forget.

Forgetting all that isn't you

knowing in my heart

no other man would do..

All the things you do

to make me smile...

are all in you,

it's all worthwhile.

The way I talk,

and the way you listen

as if it's the first time you've heard it before.

And I keep talking

and you keep listening

and you listen...and listen once more

And then I find time

to push you away

and you find time

to be back the next day...

I tell you I hate you

as you kiss my cheek

because deep down you know

exactly, what I really mean.

And now my heart

is so wrapped up in fear

but somehow..

you know just how to get near...

close enough to

touch my heart...

and give me faith

in our new start.

Then my mind takes me back

to all the ones before

and how...

it felt so right

but how

it ended so wrong.

And how...

they took my heart in pieces

and how...

the hurt just never ceases.

and now...

how things just feel the same

and how..

I can't keep up with this game.

Cause if I finally let you in,

You would have to accept

the person I've been.

and me accept

that you're not him.

But you could hurt me

just like he did.

did

did you expect this to be easy...

cause I know it's a lot to take in..

But before I jump TOO far...

Tell me your name again??

Yesterday

Over.

Before I fell in love, I fell in love. Unnoticed. I gave you everything, without giving you anything at all. Unwillingly, I allowed you to caress my heart. You graced my life with your evanescent presence, and just like that...you faded away. You gave me everything I never wanted, and nothing I never needed. and that was love. Bitter, yes I was. Lonely...confused, were things I felt. But I'm standing here..still standing. Not waiting, or wandering, but wondering how time could have brought me so much pain, yet so much promise. Cause what you promised, was that "everything will be alright". And I'm alright, with or without you by my side. You see the love I have for you is no longer a burst of flame, but rather a small spark in this wind. Your heart seems way more distant, moving further each day. Your voice is unrecognizable, but I like it that way...with no sound. No control. No power over what has always been mines. Our clock is broken, but I'm STILL frozen in time. and I lost you, or did I really even lose you? For I know just where to find you if I ever feel that I should. But even if I needed you, I don't think that I could because what I'm feeling today is reality in its place. This dream we had for us was nice while it lasted. You painted it though it seems like you've already moved passed it. So this is my goodbye, for you from me. No longer holding on to what was or what should be. You are doing you, and someone else will be doing me. Don't feel bad. I will always remember the day that I fell... but YOU should remember this day...so long, farewell.

Silya Says:

"God gave us love...why is it so hard for you to give yours away?"

If I...

I'm breathing... without you. I wake up. I walk. I talk. I sleep. I wake up and do it all over again. I'm alive, so it seems. But you killed me. And things will never be the same. I have all these things to say to you, things I should have said, things I would have said, things I could have said...but I can't. If I told you how many nights I've stared up at the ceiling, afraid to turn over not wanting to smother myself in tears. How its these nights, where I look over and your side of the bed is just how you left it. And in the mirror I see how you left me... just dazed and confused. If I told you all my secrets, the things I do to fill this void of where you were supposed to be, you probably wouldn't recognize me. How these secrets have turned its back on me, how these same secrets keep on breaking me into the girl I was before you, the girl nobody knew. Because before you...there was no me. Before you I wasn't beautiful, not even a little bit. Before you I wasn't complete, not even close. I cheated myself out of life...before you, but it was you that taught me how to live it. If I told you how much I hated you, would you know I meant I love you instead? Because even when I try to blame you, I can only blame all my love that I left unsaid. If I told you how even when I'm silent, I'm still screaming out loud. That every word I write unfolds out of you. That I would give up FOREVER just to touch you again. How I fight for you even when there's no war. How I smile because I know thats what you loved the most. How I wait for you...I'm still waiting. If I told you that I close my eyes, cut off my dreams, and pray that when I open them, you're standing in front of me. But when I open my eyes all I see is that the better half of me is you, the man that I can no longer have. So if I told you, what would it change...because I look over and your side of the bed is just how you left it...without you.

ONE NIGHT ONLY

I missed you, for one night only. I got over you, and then I missed you again. For that one night, I touched you, now I'm wondering if my touch is still there. See, there's really know way to reach you because you're already gone. Yet, I keep reaching. I'm on the tips of my toes, on the edge of this cliff almost overboard. If the wind blew a little harder, I just might tip over. The whole time I am falling, you watch me as if its a stranger you see...and if it is, I give you permission to take the blame from you and put it on me. Cause for that one night only, I loved you. I lost you, but then I loved you again. But when did you stop? The way you..you looked at me said...forever. But now your lips are saying, "I never...". Never what? Loved me? Or is it that you were just so much of a coward, soo scared to love someone as much as I could love you? Well, guess what...you deserved every ounce of my love and I deserve every drop of you, but the difference between us two is that I follow my heart, BUT you obviously left yours behind. So when you find it, give it back please...even if it is for that one night. One night only...

i'm not bitter BUT...

if only you knew what it felt like to watch you look at her, the same ways you did me. she makes you laugh, and you smile. and then you smile, and she laughs...just as we did. you're singing her our song, and giving her the same thing you gave me...happiness. You caress her face, and ii touch mines, because ii can still feel where each of your fingers once were. you look my way, as ii look down. you turn your head, ii turn around...because facing you just seems so hard. the look on my face would give it all away. but maybe, just maybe...its what you need to see. Look at me, in the eyes...and say no word. gaze into my heart and see that your space is still vacant. that just because we were wrong then, doesn't mean we can't be right now. i've let you go soo many times before, and then ii remember why ii was holding on, it's you. you opened my heart in a way that no human being should have the power to do, and no amount of stitches or glue can close it back together. just take my hand, and make no sound. see how perfectly we interlock together. notice how much breath we save by not speaking, just listening to your heartbeat gets me through the day. but you're not here, and these tears won't bring you back to me. ii just wish that you could remember what brought you to me in the first place. and as reality sets back in, and ii watch you walk away. I wonder whats next for me. Cause im looking back and ii see you. ii look ahead and see you too. Mr. AlwaysBetheOneforMe, even if you never realize. It's distance that set us apart, but its you that's breaking my heart. Watching you as you watch her. I'm not bitter BUT... *exhales*

Natasha Bedingfield - I Bruise Easily

Silya Says:

"The only way to lose something, is if you let it go."